Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
i never needed you
i never needed you to be strong i never needed you for pointing out my wrongs i never needed pain my love for you was stong enough you should have known i never needed you for judgement i never needed you to question what i did i never asked for help i took care of my self i dont know why you think you got a hold of me i never needed your corrections on everything from how i act to what i say i never needed words i never needed hurt i never needed you to be there everyday im sorry for the way i let go of everything i wanted when you came along and with just a simple conversation i let you know whats on my mind and there isnt anything you can say so look at me and lissen cuz i dont want to stay another minute i dont want you to say a single word there is no other way i get the final say i dont want to do this any longer there is nothing left to say i have alreddy spoken our love is broken
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Thursday, November 5, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
special msg mother janam
i want to whisper in your ear words that only you can hear that everything will be okay when day becomes night so take one more step to your next adventure i will be right here by your side the whole time so dont worry i got you
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
b-day
today is my birthday but i guess no one rememberd cuz i havent got any calls , congratulations or cards . i think this is the first year when everyone has forgott it , its always someone that dont remember this stuff but everyone ? thats just to much . well i guess people have more inportent thinks going on in there lifes so happy b-day to me
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Saturday, October 31, 2009
today
good morning everyone , today is a slow day . just sitting home watching movies and relaxing . right now i have a face mask (as you all can see) and now im going to make some dinner but i dont know what yet . talk to you later
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Friday, October 30, 2009
ullared
we went to the buss at 06.10 to start our trip it was really dark outside and we feelt like we should go back to bed . on top of that i was not feeling so good , i had a terrible pain in my stomach and it feelt like my head was falling of ...
on the buss we feelt a little bit better , we were still tired but no one sleept cuz the nature was just to beautiful to miss . you see ullared is up on a mountain and to get there you have to travel through a wonderful forest so none of us wanted to miss that ... this was the best i bought , one watch , a lacoste perfum and a nail set ...
this day was a success , im really glad , hope i see more days like this
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Monday, October 26, 2009
one day left
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Friday, October 23, 2009
planing trip
next week im going to ULLARED ! the best shopping center in the world . im making a list of everything i want to buy and its getting very loooong :P i will take many pictures for you all to see . right now im siting at work but i get of in 10min so talk to you later :P
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
armani
here is our new cat
his name is armani , yeah just like the brand :P
it took a long time before we got you but now
your here :D
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Friday, October 9, 2009
new nails
siting here at work , i have just boked a new aappointment for my nails so tomorrow i will have something new pattern on my nails . thought about having something with halloween cuz its soon to come :P i will show you tomorrow . have to get back to work now . XOXO ;)
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Friday, September 11, 2009
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
fun day
we went to the circus , it was so fun .
it was one of the better days .
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
speciel msg mother janam
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Saturday, August 1, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
its over
when we first met i thought that i never could feel something so strong again , you were like my lover and my best friend all wrapped up into one . but all of a sudden you went and left me and i didnt know how to follow and now my heart is dead . i feel so empty and hollow ... i have never given so much of my to someone els . you dont even recognize the ways you hurt me , do you ? its gonna take me a miracle to bring me back and your the one to blame ! damn aint it crazy when your wrapped up in love you do everything for the one you love . anytime you needed me , i would be there waiting for you . it was like you were my favorite drug , the only problem was that you was using me but now that i know its not meant to be i gotta get away from you ... i guess this its what i get for wishful thinking . should never had let you in of the door . next time you wanna go on and leave i should just let you go on and do it !
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
friday , not what i thought
well fridays finally here , the day i was waiting for but now when its here i just dont feel so good about it . i started the morrning in a fight with someone and now im sitting at work and feeling worse then ever ... i have been waiting for this day for a hole year , today is festival in my town and finally i have someone to go with but since this mornings fight i doubt that i will be going at all . talk about the worse timing ever ! i guess i will have to change my plans for to night . new plan ; going straight home after work and sink down into the couch , watching movies and feeling sorry about myself . pretty depressing huh ? i hate days like this when i wake up in the morning thinking that this day will be a good one but then somethings happens that makes me feel like i never wanna see this day again . it would bee easyer if i had just known from the beginning that this day would suck like any other day cuz then i wouldnt care since every days like that but now i got my hopes up and then i got my hopes down again and all in within 30minutes ... but the day isnt over yet , maybe something good will happen . one can always hope ...
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
borring day
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
tired day
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a day to remember
just beeing silly and having fun ,
to bad i didnt record when we where
having a water fight but i can tell you all
that i won ! i laughed so hard i
almost peed my pants !
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Monday, July 20, 2009
today was a slow day , just sitting home watching movies and baking cookies but now im going to sleep cuz i have to go up early ... so much to do , including a barbecue . so hopping for a good day to tomorrow fingers crossed .
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
hush
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
circle
as i sit on the grownd trying to figure out why im crying to night i feel a coldness walking from my back , moving further up my neck ... i have shared so many tears its a miracle that they keep falling down my cheeks every single night . im standing in the middle of an circle with nothing but darkness around me . the hair on my arms are standing right up now and i can feel the blood moving around in my body . i get up and look around me , no one there . my heart is beating faster , i move around in the circle , trying to find a way out but i cant see anything . there is no exit . where has all the lights gone ? everywhere i turn all i see is black , confused i fall down on my knees while im puting my hands infront of my face , then i freeze ! i cant move ! i sit on the grownd in a freezing position , just staring on my hands . i cant see them , i look ay myself and i realize that i cant even see myself ... what happend ? where am i ? how did i get here ? there are so many thoughts running around in my head and then it hits me , i remember everything . i know why im crying and i know what this circle is . i know why there arent any exits . this circle is my unhappiness , my lonliness and my sadness . this circle is my prison , im chained to this circle with big and strong chains , i will never get out of here . this is my tears and my pain , with other words this is my life ...
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Monday, June 29, 2009
im sorry to say that i will not be able to blog for a indefinitely time sence i dont have access to a computer right now so for all you readers please have patience and i will try to solve the problem as quickly as possible .
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
cant let go
i keep telling myself that im happy when really im not . the truth is i miss you , i dont understand why you are gone ... i think about you every single day and your the reason keeping me
up at night ... this wasnt the plan you know , it was never going to end this way . i had just got back on my feet and had finally everything figure out but one thing i didnt know was that just around the coner waited a tragedy so terrible that i couldnt even imagine in my worst nightmare . it kicked me all the way down again but this time i wasnt at the bottom , i was ten times lower down ... it was and it still is really hard for me to get up in the morrning , i think thats the reason why i have stoped going to bed . i have so many feelings these days that its getting hard for me to gather them and pick out one and try to focus on that one , they all just kinda floats around in my head ... im a mess and it starts to show , i cant do anything anymore . i got your last words on my mind , if only you where here with me then i could tell you everything but your not ... every choice i make is a new mistake , every turn i make and every step take to run away from your memory seems impossible for me . it doesnt matter where ever i go everything i see is you , i dont know how to get by . you are everything i need . i try to runaway from it but i just cant let go ... i wish you where here with me right now , i wish you would make my pain go away . i wish we could trade places . its funny beacuse before i didnt have anything to say but now that your gone i have so manny things to tell you , things i should have said when i had the chance . do you remember all the things we did together ? im tripping on how much i really miss you . if it wasnt for the will that god had made , i would turn back the hands of time and take your place . i cant belive my ears in what everybody is saying , its easy for them to say just move on but they dont know the half of it . im dying every second that your gone . im not okay im a mess and the truth is i miss you dad ...
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
and then there are days like this
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Friday, June 12, 2009
no love
nights full of fears and my eyes full of tears and its all cuz i have been hearing the same lies for so long now . i cant get a break no matter how hard i try and i lost my real love so i took the closest thing i could find , but he was far away from perfect . he said that he would always be around but its diffrent now . im stressing out cuz i cant figure it out .. he swept me of my feet . when i meet him it was love at first sight , he didnt even curse , he said that he was the church type . he was almost mr right until our first fight , then i found out that he was worse then my last one cuz he hit me in the face so hard that it hurt to bite . and now im uncertain of this person i loved but i keep making excuses for him beeing abusive cuz i want it to work this time so i convince my mind that its fine but in time i will find that real love aint defined with violence and if im crying every night just cuz some guy decided that its okay to hit me then its time that i learn from my misstakes . i need to stop denpending on my man for love and start depending on my man above . cuz i am an angel ..
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Friday, June 5, 2009
a good day
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Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
long nights
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Thursday, May 7, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
mother janam
special message to my mom ;
people may not remember
exactly what you said or did ,
but they will alwalys remember
how you made them feel ..
you make me feel complete .
you are my heart forever
just like a tatto
i'll always have you ..
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Friday, April 17, 2009
apologize
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
who is that boy ?
i saw him standing in the crowd
and suddenly i was blinded
and even though everything was moving
my hole world came to stop
now i need to know please i need to know
angel eyes of mine where have you gone
were you really here or was it just a dream ?
in a sea of smiling faces someone special caught my eyes and now i need to know who is that boy in the black jacket , with deep brown eyes and the magic smile .. has anybody seen him ?
who is that boy ? tell me his name , does he feel the same ? this is no ordinary crush , if i have to i'll go halfway around the world
just to know his name . now i need to know please i need to know
who is that boy ?
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
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Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
special msg
special message to all you bloggers
beeing reast by a single mom ,
give her a break shes doing the best she can !
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Saturday, March 21, 2009
how comes
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Friday, March 13, 2009
if this walls could talk
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Monday, February 16, 2009
the fire in my eyes
you see the fire in my eyes
you think i burn for life ,
but you dont know my fire
burns for death .
a death thats soon to come .
i know its close i can feel it .
when the wind passes by and
my body shudder with fear i can feel it .
fear of not knowing whats get to come .
but as the fire in my eyes continue to burn
all i can do is just wait , wait for whats yet to come .
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Sunday, February 15, 2009
when i ...
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Sunday, February 8, 2009
you dont know me
you talk to me every day
but you dont know me
you think you know
everything about me
you think i tell you everything
but you dont know
what goes on in my head
you think im happy
but you dont know
inside im screaming
so dont for a second think
that you know me
because no one really knows me
im a question mark
for everyone
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Saturday, February 7, 2009
tears of blood
and my world never existed
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Friday, February 6, 2009
loneliness
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Monday, February 2, 2009
this life is moving to fast
feels like this life is moving to fast and im just
standing still , i can feel the wind pass by and
so my hole life passes by with the wind , and just
like that everything is gone . everything that i have ever struggle for is gone and there is nothing i can do about is . beacuse its already too late and left is just a spark of what used to me .
last year i lost my way , this year i lost my self .
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