im sorry to say that i will not be able to blog for a indefinitely time sence i dont have access to a computer right now so for all you readers please have patience and i will try to solve the problem as quickly as possible .
Monday, June 29, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
cant let go
i keep telling myself that im happy when really im not . the truth is i miss you , i dont understand why you are gone ... i think about you every single day and your the reason keeping me
up at night ... this wasnt the plan you know , it was never going to end this way . i had just got back on my feet and had finally everything figure out but one thing i didnt know was that just around the coner waited a tragedy so terrible that i couldnt even imagine in my worst nightmare . it kicked me all the way down again but this time i wasnt at the bottom , i was ten times lower down ... it was and it still is really hard for me to get up in the morrning , i think thats the reason why i have stoped going to bed . i have so many feelings these days that its getting hard for me to gather them and pick out one and try to focus on that one , they all just kinda floats around in my head ... im a mess and it starts to show , i cant do anything anymore . i got your last words on my mind , if only you where here with me then i could tell you everything but your not ... every choice i make is a new mistake , every turn i make and every step take to run away from your memory seems impossible for me . it doesnt matter where ever i go everything i see is you , i dont know how to get by . you are everything i need . i try to runaway from it but i just cant let go ... i wish you where here with me right now , i wish you would make my pain go away . i wish we could trade places . its funny beacuse before i didnt have anything to say but now that your gone i have so manny things to tell you , things i should have said when i had the chance . do you remember all the things we did together ? im tripping on how much i really miss you . if it wasnt for the will that god had made , i would turn back the hands of time and take your place . i cant belive my ears in what everybody is saying , its easy for them to say just move on but they dont know the half of it . im dying every second that your gone . im not okay im a mess and the truth is i miss you dad ...
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
and then there are days like this
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Friday, June 12, 2009
no love
nights full of fears and my eyes full of tears and its all cuz i have been hearing the same lies for so long now . i cant get a break no matter how hard i try and i lost my real love so i took the closest thing i could find , but he was far away from perfect . he said that he would always be around but its diffrent now . im stressing out cuz i cant figure it out .. he swept me of my feet . when i meet him it was love at first sight , he didnt even curse , he said that he was the church type . he was almost mr right until our first fight , then i found out that he was worse then my last one cuz he hit me in the face so hard that it hurt to bite . and now im uncertain of this person i loved but i keep making excuses for him beeing abusive cuz i want it to work this time so i convince my mind that its fine but in time i will find that real love aint defined with violence and if im crying every night just cuz some guy decided that its okay to hit me then its time that i learn from my misstakes . i need to stop denpending on my man for love and start depending on my man above . cuz i am an angel ..
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Friday, June 5, 2009
a good day
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