the greatest song ever

its over

when we first met i thought that i never could feel something so strong again , you were like my lover and my best friend all wrapped up into one . but all of a sudden you went and left me and i didnt know how to follow and now my heart is dead . i feel so empty and hollow ... i have never given so much of my to someone els . you dont even recognize the ways you hurt me , do you ? its gonna take me a miracle to bring me back and your the one to blame ! damn aint it crazy when your wrapped up in love you do everything for the one you love . anytime you needed me , i would be there waiting for you . it was like you were my favorite drug , the only problem was that you was using me but now that i know its not meant to be i gotta get away from you ... i guess this its what i get for wishful thinking . should never had let you in of the door . next time you wanna go on and leave i should just let you go on and do it !

just some everyday love

i let the picture speak for it self

friday , not what i thought

well fridays finally here , the day i was waiting for but now when its here i just dont feel so good about it . i started the morrning in a fight with someone and now im sitting at work and feeling worse then ever ... i have been waiting for this day for a hole year , today is festival in my town and finally i have someone to go with but since this mornings fight i doubt that i will be going at all . talk about the worse timing ever ! i guess i will have to change my plans for to night . new plan ; going straight home after work and sink down into the couch , watching movies and feeling sorry about myself . pretty depressing huh ? i hate days like this when i wake up in the morning thinking that this day will be a good one but then somethings happens that makes me feel like i never wanna see this day again . it would bee easyer if i had just known from the beginning that this day would suck like any other day cuz then i wouldnt care since every days like that but now i got my hopes up and then i got my hopes down again and all in within 30minutes ... but the day isnt over yet , maybe something good will happen . one can always hope ...

borring day

today was a really borring day and i dont have anything to say really (theres a shocker) . i got woken up by the phone ringing so that pissed me of but the rest of the day was okay , i didnt really do anything . just staid in my bed with my computer checking around on youtube ... now im going to watch a movie before i go to bed . tomorrow i really have to do something i cant keep stay home in bed , soon my neighbours will start refering to me as the creepy neighbour who never goes out ... i have just learnd how to film with my camera so hopefully in the future i will publish a lot of short movies , i think its more fun with movies then pictures ... well good night .

tired day

a slow day today , still thinking about

yesterday (big smile) . as a matter of

fact i have just woken up and now im just

sitting here watching the hills but i have

to get something done today so im going

to wash my clothes and maybe clean the

kitchen if im up for it . im updating later .

a day to remember

just beeing silly and having fun ,
to bad i didnt record when we where
having a water fight but i can tell you all
that i won ! i laughed so hard i
almost peed my pants !

today was a slow day , just sitting home watching movies and baking cookies but now im going to sleep cuz i have to go up early ... so much to do , including a barbecue . so hopping for a good day to tomorrow fingers crossed .

hush

every day you wake up in your million dollar home , the only reality you know . you are driving out on the streets in your thousands dollars car , driving past people living hard . you complain about the gas prices but you still supports the war , you get disturb on the taxes to feed the poor . you dont understand the homeless , dosnt think its still a problem that millions die from hunger so you say hush to make it better . you think that the world is just a joke but little do you know that there is a real life trauma happening right outside our door cuz you just continue to ignore . you keep searching through the channels , skipping past the new . your more entertaind by life in gossip cuz it hurts to see the truth and you dont even bother to vote cuz you say its a wast of time . in my mind im thinking ohhh everybody wants to tuch the sky but nobody wants to reach out for thoese who are scared to fly . everybody wants to go to heaven but if you dont want to sacrifice then dont say nothing at all !

circle

as i sit on the grownd trying to figure out why im crying to night i feel a coldness walking from my back , moving further up my neck ... i have shared so many tears its a miracle that they keep falling down my cheeks every single night . im standing in the middle of an circle with nothing but darkness around me . the hair on my arms are standing right up now and i can feel the blood moving around in my body . i get up and look around me , no one there . my heart is beating faster , i move around in the circle , trying to find a way out but i cant see anything . there is no exit . where has all the lights gone ? everywhere i turn all i see is black , confused i fall down on my knees while im puting my hands infront of my face , then i freeze ! i cant move ! i sit on the grownd in a freezing position , just staring on my hands . i cant see them , i look ay myself and i realize that i cant even see myself ... what happend ? where am i ? how did i get here ? there are so many thoughts running around in my head and then it hits me , i remember everything . i know why im crying and i know what this circle is . i know why there arent any exits . this circle is my unhappiness , my lonliness and my sadness . this circle is my prison , im chained to this circle with big and strong chains , i will never get out of here . this is my tears and my pain , with other words this is my life ...